does anyone go on LJ anymore anyway? XD oh well! I know a select few do.

1 - Tell you why I friended you.
2 - Associate you with a song/film.
3 - Tell a random fact about you.
4 - Tell a first memory about you.
5 - Associate you with a character/pairing.
6 - Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7 - Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
8 - In retort, you must spread this disease in your LJ.

sometimes I wonder...do I know you?

You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism. </td> Satanism 71% agnosticism 67% Paganism 63% Islam 63% Buddhism 54% Hinduism 54% atheism 54% Judaism 50% Christianity 29% Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com

So I'm sitting here...with nothing to do..for once! And now that I am sitting here. I cannot think of anything to write/draw and thus...consider myself completely LAME. or something. But I have ice water so everything is all good. <3 or more like..just ice, since I drank most of the water.

anyway. I'm bored. I might see the Number 23 tomorrow...if I have time. And money. Who knows. I hope school won't be too boring tomorrow. :3

shits. just remembered I have to go burn a CD now.

I'm sorry for everything.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VI! In honor of your nineteenth birthday...I'll use my kewlest icons that remind me of US!

except..

we already TORE that shit up.

stop telling me lies.
I fall for them everytime and land straight on my face.

( reminds me of dante's inferno... )

this is what my brother said earlier [because my new cursor was somehow changed into planets rotating around the sun]....

'captain planet, captain planet~ he's more fun than a pillow fight!'

my brother didn't realize what he had said until I started cracking up. hahaha.

After eighteen years of putting on those pathetic masks, it's hard to live without them. I find myself constantly needing the reassurance of other people, when I should be able to create my own support.

I feel like all I do is repeat myself day and day. I keep thinking these thoughts...but I never dare to say them out loud. I want to tell someone, but I don't know who to talk to. I don't want to talk to anyone, actually. I find that all I am these days is cold hearted. That or I'm just fake.

I feel like people don't care about me or my problems. They can act like it, but do they know me? Do they even give a flying shit what my problems are? Chances are...they don't. Who would? Isn't this world filled with selfish assholes who pretend? I'm one of them. Even the people you think would care, most likely don't because it...one, doesn't involve them, or two, it's just boring.

I try to build a wall between what I feel and what I express. But I feel like that wall is just crumbling away. I'm getting tired of being such a stupid fuck who doesn't do anything but go to school and work. I want a life. I want friends.

As I've said many times, I want to just go drive myself into a brick wall, a river, a fucking black hole. And for all you dumbshits out there...I don't want attention. I don't want to be thought of as 'emo' or some shit. I don't even want you to comment.

are you really listening?